╰ ♡ mckiss me asap.

^{Matt laughs at the question, before it occurs to him that Jonathan is not joking, and promptly drags his hand over his mouth to contain it. His brain then decides it’s the perfect moment to spin a memory reel of Matt on his knees, between the part of a very masculine pair of thighs, with a hand on the back of his head, pushing DOWN. He drops his hand from his face, looks at Jonathan, and then somewhere off to the side, still struggling to curb his grin.} 

                                                      ^{❛ Anyways. ❜}

^{He ignores Jonathan’s invitation to sleep more in public, because he just doesn’t have that level of confidence. What if he talks in his sleep? What if he snores? There are just too many unknown variables. Thanks, but no thanks. Maybe one day Jonathan will let Matt nap on him in a more private setting.}

^{❛ I know, I KNOW— I’m just kidding. Save that heart attack for your early forties, alright? You’re good.❜}

^{Matt then proceeds to STARE at Jonathan through the pause, because ‘I don’t come early’ and ‘I’ll just jerk off later’ just registered, and yes, it DOES sound just as bad as Jonathan is probably thinking. ( Honestly, how is this boy still alive? ) And Matt thought he struggled in social situations. Oh boy.}

                                                     ^{❛ UH— ❜}

^{A pause of his own because he really doesn’t know how to continue. He’s honestly never talked to anyone with this level of talent in terms of digging themselves deeper and deeper into a hole. Maybe if he waits Jonathan will just fall right through the earth.} 

^{❛ You know something… You give a WHOLE new meaning to the phrase ‘gay panic’. It’s like— honestly painful to watch. You have to stop this. Do the breathing exercises pregnant ladies use.❜}

^{Matt demonstrates said breathing exercises. HE, HE, HOO. HE, HE, HOO.}

^{the rejection ( that’s how he’s taking it ) makes him want to slide all the on his back on the floor and let all the other students walk all over him. but he simply settles for imagining it with closed eyes for a few seconds, before he forces them open to stare at matt again.  he’s so attractive that it physically hurts jonathan, deep down. he still can’t believe matt was allowing jonathan to help him out. it was insane.}

^{he usually never got this way over anyone, but that’s because there’s never been anyone quite like matt before. he still doesn’t know what he thinks of him, entirely, but he just knows that he’d give anything to get just one little kiss, just to know for sure if his feelings are genuine. if he’s actually… into boys that way.} 

^{what would he even do if he was? he has no idea.}

^{mid-heart attack, jonathan blinks at matt when he starts giving him examples of breathing exercises. it actually makes him give a little laugh, one that surprises him enough to make him reach up and put his fingers on his bottom lip, as if to stop any future laughs.} 

^{he doesn’t try to follow matt’s lead, but watching the boy do them sure makes jonathan smile enough to forget about embarrassing himself in front of matt countless times.} 

        ^{❛ I- I’m sorry, I’m good, I’M CALM. — wait, GAY PANIC? w-what are you… talking about? ❜}